Freaky

Do you know how scary it is being alone? Every single innocent sound made, manipulated by our brain to be the most terrifying nightmare. This is what happen when you are all alone in campus.

I just arrived at Padang Lalang a few hours ago. Since the compound is empty, I just deposited my luggage and off I go to Megamall. I bought some food for Mumil and fed him already. Qiqi's here and that is a relief because I'm absolutely afraid to go and stay in my room alone. I would rather sleep down here in the dining hall rather than my room. By the way, I'm staying in room 210 because my old room is further up and I don't think I could sleep when I know that the hallway is empty as well as all the room there. When I think about it again, the whole entire block is empty and I'm occupying the heart of it. Waaaa, somebody, please come! I should have come here tomorrow and save all this unnecessary fear for later.

It is safe to say, I'm going to sleep early and not going to care if anyone came knocking. o.O

Cuak!

Hmmm, lemme just say I have no idea what 'cuak' is in English.

Where to start?
I've told(finally) my mum that I'm going to Kuantan tomorrow albeit I'm not competing. I am kinda distraught.

What is this bullshit? I seriously find it hard to express myself and suddenly using big words which I can't spell very well will just spin my puny head.

I'm going to Kuantan tomorrow and then Penang at the end of the week. There's this Penang Debate Open where I'm going to be one of the adjudicator. Yay me. At first, I was extremely excited, now, I'm more agitated. No, I'm not worried of making new friends and making a fool of myself. Nor am I worried that I would annoy them to death with my incessant rambling. (sorry to all my friends who had to bear with my stupidity). I'm actually worried about my current friends whom I can't communicate very well to.

Most of you know that the debaters are lawrians right? (except Syauqi, Hanan and Iadid of course, they're TESLian)

No, I don't detest them. I like and respect them. It's me who's being stupid and feel like an outsider all the time. Normally, I could mingle well with people. Okay by my standard. But, with this crowd, I'm as quiet as a mouse. I can't find anything good to say or fit in.

I hate being vulnerable and helpless. I hate not knowing stuff. I know, I know. If I don't know something, look it up, right? Wrong! Knowledge is too vast and sometime, incomprehensible. The internet can only help you understand the surface of the stuff. Where oh where can I find the gist of the debate topic. Much, much better than using a search engine.

I think I'm ranting again, and not writing what I really wanted to. Sorry for the awful grammar mistakes and simple vocabs. If I find my courage, I would write again. In case I won't find it, I need to chase the Cowardly Lion for it then, cheerio. To the people who are offended, don't take it to heart. It's just wasn't meant for your eyes. *grin

Made Me Smile :3

I smile frequently, usually. I thought reading joke books and surrendering my soul to 9gag would at least tickle my funny bone. Unfortunately, I have become expectedly bored. I've been tampering with this new-found site on tumblr. It's called The Final Sentence. As you can see above, that is the first post that had been contributed by me. Me, moi, watashi or any other form of me in any language.

The fact that I'm happy is there are hundreds of submission by everyone around the world and I admittedly, submitted that about 2 weeks ago. It has taken that long for my post to show up. o.O

The site is actually recording all work of literature, English ones that is. They are collecting the final sentence of each English book in the world. I wanted all of my personal library to be in there. But, I can only send one submission per week since they said and I quoted "there's too much traffic in our inbox".

Anyway, all of you are welcome to share the books that you have read on that site. Get on tumblr and submit. :)

My Oh-So-Fabulous Cooking Skill

Well, today I bake a bread. Remember the dough from yesterday? I did something that I'm not sure right or wrong but my hunch said its wrong. Any-who, the bread turned out wonderfully  wrong. Here are pictures as proofs.

Caption: The picture is actually upside down and is held on by a stick. But its actually how the bread should have looked like, upright.

That my friends is the bed that I bake. Only one tiny bun and I messed up. I think it's because I put it in the freezer overnight before baking. Or maybe because I did not even know the temperature nor the time I was supposed to bake it. Alas, there are so many possibilities.

 I am not bummed with how it turned out. It is my first try. I'm actually cursing my cooking skills. I know its been months that I set foot in the kitchen but what saddened me is how bad lack of practice made me.

Today I cooked dinner. Yeah, Papa's not around so I get to cook. I decided to make spaghetti which is one of my favourite (and able to cook) dish. When I taste the gravy without the Vermicelli (err, I think its thin spaghetti), it was awesome and drool worthy. But... when its time to devour the whole thing, it tasted weird. its as if everything is missing. The flavour, the meat and vegetables inside, all seems to disappear... :(

I am so frustrated over THAT. I guess I need to practice more or all my dishes would be tasteless. >,<

Peeta- The Hunger Games

I said I would write more didn't I?

Well, today, the only remarkable thing that I did was making bread dough.

Its fairly easy.

Just add flour, water, yeast, sugar and salt.

Then knead them,

leave it for a while

then knead it again.

Unfortunately, I'm no Peeta who can bake and is one of his passion. Its almost morning and the dough remains unbaked. I guess my short attention span causes this disgrace of laziness. Perhaps the fact that I do not no how to work the oven also contributes to the lack of desire to see the bread to be crisply done.

I'm forcing my butt to get out of bed to pray then get back in it to sleep. Its hard to stay away from my lappy though. Its like its glued to me or something. 

As they say, to wake up early, one must sleep early. But.......... one does not simply sleep early when there's internet connection. o.O

Indescribable

I feel like rolling around in a field of flowers. Those poisonous poppies in Wizard of Oz sounds kinda nice. I could simply escape the world. (sigh)


I'm trying to delude myself that planning for my future is not important. I guess comic books finally have their purposes in life.


I filled up the form for upu etc, but I still think nothing of them. I even chose law for God sake. What is wrong with me? Now if I get that program, I have to memorise all the act and stuff. I also have to be extremely hardworking to past all the exams.


Although there are several (well most) of my favourite tv shows are about lawyers, it might have awed me a bit. Well, who wouldn't? They are incredible, like Kate from Fairly Legal. Mike Ross from the newest hit series from Diva (Suits, season 1) is downright amazing. I'm fawning over him right now.


Oh-kay, I'm going astray, the point is, I can't make up my mind. i don't know what to be..................
Ooh, that reminds me of a song

You can't make up your mind (mind2)

Please don't waste my time (time2)

Hmmm, I don't really remember the lyrics nor the singer. Normally, I would sing then I'll remember but, its the dead of the night so I can't possibly do that right now. Can't I?

Yeah.. I've gone astray again. I don't think I'm capable to reconstruct my whole writing since I'm distracted.

Lets just recap the day shall we. 

• I learned how to remove those icky black stuff from prawns. Yay me. 
• Get to spend time with my dad by helping him with that... sorry ma, its not that I don't love you, I just found him less patronizing to talk to. Always have, and always will.
• chores... blerrgghhh
• oh, and discover a new series which I talk about above. Suits. *squeal
• Trying to download whole season 1 of Suits. Trying being the keyword here because I have no freaking idea on what I am doing.

Its late, I think I would get some shut eye and just let torrent do its magic... Sorry for being dull, but its just me.

P/S: I found a new quote :D

Believe nothing you hear and half of what you see and none of what you remember. 

Meaningless

tʊdeɪ wəz ɒsəm
dɪziː wɪf dɪz stɑːf
θæŋk gɒd ɪts ɒvə

Can you guys read that? That was my fb status... 

Well, since some of you take TESL, of course you can.

I just dunno what to do right now.

Don't get me wrong, there's still a week till exam is over.

 

Arrrrrrgggghhhhhhhh

I'm saying that even if I actually look like this right now

 

I'm already done with tumblr, 9gag, twitter and lolhappens today.

Nothing seems to fill up the hole in my heart right now

I dunno what I want,

what I need.

I think I'm stressed

People say to ease stress is to realise that you have them first.

Well, Mr Stress, I know you're here, just get the hell away from me

I got Literature Test tomorrow

I need to read the freaking book.

Maybe a nap would help?

This is not what I really want to write actually but bear with me.

Tired for no reason. FML